J.J Hotsauce

... best time in college?? friday.. dante, stevie, mehr, his friend billy and kingsley came down here to sdsu... we lounged around for a while... by 1030 we drove to the border with my friends katie and reina lol... parked our cars and walked over to Tijuana.. it felt weird... it was kinda nerve wrecking being out of the country.. after trying to read spanish for a while.. we grabbed a cab to go to club safari and club mystery... arrived at the club... and all i can say is.. mayhem! all i can say is free drinks, dirty dancing.. college kids everywhere.. and good times with the fellas! i had a disposable camera and was just taking crazy pictures.. then some security guard took it from me!!! FUCKER!! and i was dancing with this girl.. and this guy out of nowhere gets in my face.. and says "aye homes get away from my wife" clearly he was drunk.. so kingsley got in his face and he just kinda walked away.. i was like whatever. after all that we came back to sdsu around 630 in the morning.. everyone just crashed... woke up on saturday morning... had lunch then we went to the pacific beach... then rested up and went out to a house party... it was the perfect icing on the cake after a crazy night in TJ... dante and everyone left around 4 am in the morning.. whooaaa.. just soo much to write... its sunday = recovery day and study day... i love the shit out of life.. its weird.

hey everyone.. here are some pics of my room here at sdsu.. my roommate is kevin.. funny funny guy.. just think stifler! anyways.. this is my side of course.. thats all.

one whole year.. it has been sicne i've updated... its soo weird... haha.. well i decided that maybe i should try to update atleast on the eventful stuff.. so when after these four years of bliss is over.. i can look back and just say wow! anyways, i've been in school for about two months.. and even though it is definitely getting tough, im having the time of my life.. like ryan i feel a bit of regret.. of not taking my bids at Kappa ALpha and Sigma Alpha Epsilson but oh well.. im not really good with listening to people.. the whole problem with authority.. and since we have such a formal greek system here at sdsu.. the pledge process was going to be really time consuming.. who knows maybe spring semester... anyways.. nothing much going on right now.. just studying and doing essays like no other... just loving the shit out of my life.. this weekend looks to be very fun.. tijuana on friday.. soo glad my buddies are coming down.. id never go to tj alone.. its a shit hole.. but the club is crazy there.. hey its a once in a lifetime thing... then on saturday its a big party somewhere.. haha thats how it always is... well... its good to be back kinda.. i might just get lazy and say fuck it again.. oh well.. goodnight all! ;)

I took my love and I took it down
Climbed a mountain and turned around
And I saw my reflection in the snow-covered hills
'til the landslide brought it down

Oh, mirror in the sky -What is love?
Can the child within my heart rise above?
Can I sail through the changin'...ocean tides
Can I handle the seasons of my life?
I don't know.....I don't know

Well I've been afraid of changin'
because I've built my life around you
But time makes you bolder, even children get older
And I'm getting older too....

So, take my love...take it down
Climb a mountain and turn around
and if you see my reflection in the snow-covered hill
well the landslide will bring it down
The landslide will bring it down

goodnight all.

HI IM THANH! im trying to dance like b2k right now!! WOOO watch me!! >:T

thanhie did a lot of work today!! he's feeling better and SEXAY again!! i told him he was in denial and told him wut he was thinking! guess wut?! I WAS RIGHT!! and now he doesnt know what to do. ::teartear::

okay. i must take this foo home now!!! our SECRET MISSION 1 BEGINS tonight!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! puahahahahahahaaha


googliebear and shmootziepoo signing out !!!! lol

NITE!


MOVIE TOMORROW!!!!!!!!! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!

thanh: "do u feel my bicep hitting ur head?!"
me: >:T


make him stop quoting zoolander!! and he is harassing BOO!!!!! she is biting him cuz she hates him! cuz he keeps poking her!

its been a while since i've updated.. not much happening here.. same old stuff. working on college apps! grrrrrrrrr.. homecoming was pretty recent.. it was really fun.. i think everyone had a good time.. but yeah...i've had a fever the last two days.. feeling a lot better now.. well i have a load of hw to catch up on.. peace!

This is hard to say
I wanna make sure I go about this in the right way
‘Cause lately I’ve been busy a lot
And I know you don’t feel appreciated and what not
I used to tell you that your hair look fly
Kiss you slow and stare in your eyes
Now I talk real foul and slick
Every other sentence is, “You make me sick”
Back in the days I was your number one pick
Now your heart’s half broken and that’s hard to fix
I had to dig deep inside myself
‘Cause I can’t see you bouncin’ with somebody else
It’s a long journey back to the place we was
When I was too embarrassed to admit I was in love
And you was my good girl that wouldn’t give it up
I can’t let her self-destruct, uh-uh

Baby, smile today
‘Cause I’ve been imaginin’ in more ways
I’m gon’ love you better
And your friends will see it too
Just when you think there’s nothin’ else I can do
I’m gon’ love you better
One more chance, baby, and don’t say no
‘Cause I got another side to show
Some say love is painful, it helps you grow
Well, it’s time for the pain to go, you know

Baby, smile today
‘Cause I’ve been imaginin’ in more ways
I’m gon’ love you better
And your friends will see it too
Just when you think there’s nothin’ else I can do
I’m gon’ love you better

yeah today was a weird day... first in ap enviromental we hiked the ridge which wasnt a bad hike.. only it was really hot.. and dr. palmer wouldnt stop talking about poison oak the whole damn time.. yeah because of her blabbing mouth we were almost late to 3rd period.. anyways the rest of the day was ehh. i got a 44/50 on my calc test not the A i expected but an 88% isnt so bad.. anyways. after school.. jamie and i go off t hacienda crossings for starbucks. thanx for lettin me drive your car jamie and thanx for the frap! anywas soo i go back home to my aunties after.. back in san jose by 6 somethin... eat dinner with my dad.. did some calculus hw... soo yeah i talk to adrianna and mike... and we get something together.. since adrianna has a crush on him lol... so im being matchmaker kinda.. anyways.. mike is here by 11:20 soo we head out to wilcox. and we see the football team come out. aww memories soo i say wassup to my buddies and some old teammates... yeah adrianna and marjorie come by soon.. we then all head out to prospect lookout point to talk and stargaze sorta.. hahah too many clouds... so after wards its 1 o'clock and we head towards dennys... talk and hang there.. mike then has to be home by 230 so he goes home adrianna and i then drop off marjorie.. and then adrianna drives me home.. we then have a real long talk about relationships etc.. shes soo smart and wise.. soo yeah it was a real good convo and analyzation.. but yeah.. overall it was a good friday night... hah i actually did all of my calc hw before i left... see... study hard but play hard as well! :) goodnight

well today was fairly good. just like any other day really. nothing special.. hot as hell tho! yeah i was burning up. but after school. went to get ice cream at lordes or watever.. went to the libary and studied for a bit. well atleast tried to cause there were these really annoying middle schoolers. soon after i went home ate and slept a bit. then it was off to barnes n noble. to study for the first calc test. i was feeling really nervous and unsure but i think i got a hang of it. it was a really good study session. thanx marmar and lizzie! :) anyways.. feeling accomplished and jolly as i am.. to think that im actually alive to be able to study and work hard... well as u know tomorrow is the year aniversary of 9/11 and it just has me thinking of how fortunate i am to be able to work hard.. soo i shouldnt be complaining about hw or watever... since not everyone has a chance to be able to live. soo yeah.. goodnight everyone.. and stay safe :)

you all know that song all out of love by jagged edge?? well those bastards.. its a remake... of the original song by Air Supply- all out of love.. yeah i was tricked... that is all. :)

slow game.. but i dont care.. my niners won! thats all that matters.. yeah but about my day.. it wasnt so bad.. ap enviromental.. boring as hell as usual... calc.. ehhhhh!!!.. english was boring... ap econ it was a bit more exciting and ta for ms. garlit was relaxing.. but yeah.. just got back from my 3 mile run so im pretty beat.. goodnight all... and tomorrow is FRIDAY!!!

"All Out Of Love"

I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart

I wish I could carry your smile in my heart
For times when my life seems so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow can bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was wrong

I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from these long, lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too?
Does the feeling seem oh, so right?

And what would you say if I called on you now?
And said that I can't hold on?
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

Ooh, what are you thinking of
What are you thinking of
What are you thinking of
What are you thinking of

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right, believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong, so wrong

well after coming home round 5 last night... and only getting about 2 hours of sleep.. i was up by 7:30.. grrrrr.. my cousin came to pick me up cause he and i and some friends were headed towards lake tulloch near yosemite to go wake boarding and jet skiing... well after stocking up on gas and food.. we headed out there. we didnt get there as early as we wanted..soo we had hard time finding a place to camp out.. welll i went jet skiing first then just enjoyed the watr and sun.. bbqed for a bit.. then wake boarded... yeah u know how it goes.. :p but yeah.. like any other time when i go jet skiing i get pretty crazy.. soo i got "pulled" over by a lake "sheriff" so he claims he is... hahha.. he gave me a warning no biggie.. it was for me cutting off a boat hahhaha... but yeah the waves were gettin from the boats.. since i was tailgating them trying to catch some waves. well like the idiot that i am.. i did a really sharp turn right on wave and i flipped off my jet ski... while in the air i think i hit myself in the mouth or it was the hadle bar... soo yeah i cut my lip pretty bad.. ouch... my whole body is bruised up! but it was worth it all. this weekend has been soooo much fun! staying out late with my buddies and battles against the water! it cant get any better! hope everyone is having a great weekend as well. :) goodnight.

well today started off with the normal usual boringness of AP enviormental.. Dr. palmer would be yada yada yada.. and all i could do was sleep!:P anyways.. soo the rest of the day went pretty swell.. soon after school i went to marmar's house to do some calculus hw.. haha i know.. on a friday. but i just thought id get it over with since tonight we were gonna be livin it up! soo after that i went home chilled and showered... then ryan picked me up around 630 ish we then headed towards quiznos near the regal.. the 7 of us just hung out there... talked.. ate.. then it was off to the sock hop. first dance of school.. the dance overall was ok.. the music was crap.. too much rock that u couldn't really dance to. :( but we made the best of it and just had a good time.. yeah.. maybe if things were the same before.. they it might have even been better..they played some songs that made me think about stuff.. hmmm but i cant ask for more then what we had tonight.. yeah anyways.. we then went to dennys after the dance and waited an extreme long time for our food.. i had chocolate cake and milk... mmmmmmmmmmmm my favorite! :) yeah soo now im home.. overall it was a very relaxing friday.. goodnight all :)

shit... ryan's entry really opened my eyes.. school is soooo sooon.. yeah i have a lot of mixed emotions.. but overall.. i think senior year is gonna be a lot better then jr year... welll goodnight...

hey ya..
wassup...

haha anyways yeah... today wasnt so bad.. yeah i hung around the house during the day... then i went to dantes.. hung out there for a while. then we went by to the mall... saw some people there.. saw candice again. lol.. then dante and i got some food.. chilled.. then i went over to a party that my parents were at.. hung out there for a bit.. then i went home.. nothing too exciting.. yet it was relaxing... trying to relieve all this stress i have! goodight all.

whoa.. i woke up this morning and instantly realized the date. yeah its august 21st today.. a date that was realy special to me and someone.. but i guess its history now... well that really seemed to bug me all day.. ijust couldnt get it outta my mind.. well other than that amira and jamie picked me up to go to senior buddies...i guess it wasnt bad... yeah the frosh werent really talkative but what can u do...after lunch with the youngins we went to matt's house to lounge around.. then we went to the mall... yeah.. it was pretty boring.. soo amira and i left... went home hung around the house and now im back in san jo.. welll goodnight everyone...

So far away
Doesn't anybody stay in one place anymore
It will be so fine to see your face at my door
And it doesn't help to know that your just time away
Long ago I reached for you and there you stood
Holding you again could only do me goodOh how I wish I could
but you're so far away

One more song about moving along the highway

I can't say much of anything that's new
But if I could only work this life out my way
I'd rather spend it being close to youbut you're so far away
Doesn't anybody stay in one place anymore
It will be so fine to see your face at my door
And it doesn't help to know you're so far away
So far away,
yeah you're so far away

Traveling around sure get's me down and lonely
Nothing else to do but close my mindAnd I sure hope the road don't get to own me
There's so many dreams that I've yet to find But you're so far away

Doesn't anybody stay in one place anymore
It will be so fine to see your face at my doorAnd it doesn't help to know
you're so far away, you're so far awayYou're so far away, you're so far away
Oh I need to get in touch with ya babyYou're so very, very, very far away
You're so,
so far away

i love 96.5 hahha lite rock less talk..

*ahem* uhhh.. jamie is a very cool person. and she likes hugs from guys that smelly guys that lack any sense of hygene, there namme has to be jorge (pronounced the spanish way) well yeah looks like jamie is very cool.. wait one more thing.. she'll do anything for candy!

jaelici0us: candy??
jaelici0us: wait i dont get this game

night ;)

why do things turn out the way they do.. well how can what happened to jeannette and i possibly turn out to be a good thing... the last couple nights.. all i could think about was her... i just wanted to see her and tell her how i really felt and get some sense of closure... well as a matter fact i did get to see her tonight.. i tried to make it un awkward as possible but she seemed to feel a bit outta place.. i dont blame her tho... but yeah we just went to starbucks to get some drinks and went back to her grandparents house to watch some tv with her sweet sweet great aunt yvette.. well afterwards jeannette and i went for a walk to talk about this issue... i just had to clear things up.. even though im still a bit lost.. i do feel a lot better tho.. rather then before how the uncertainty was eating away at me... but yeah.. basically shes lost and confused right now.. but u know relationships take time and a little figuring out... and right now as much as i want to hold her again... im really concerned about staying close frens with her... cause i cant imagine not having such a wonderful person in my life... her feelings for me are no longer the same... and its gonna take her time tobe friends again but im willing to wait a lifetime to start over and be friends with her... i care about her soo much and i can honestly say that im still madly in love with her... it just cutts like a knife to know that every night when im asleep and im thinking about her, shes not thinking about me.. thats what hurts the most... but this whole incident has brought me to realize soo many things about myself and my character.. i wish i would've realized it earlier.. soo we ended the night really civil and it was really reassuing.. i just want to see her happy even if its not with me.. and i can say that with all the sincerity in the world... i can say that from he bottom of my heart... soo yeah i left with a broken heart.. but things are sooo uncertain now i just have to wait to see what happens.. one thing is for sure.. jeannette and i will always remain friends... that i know was meant to be.... relationship wise.. that i dont know.. all i have now is hope... well im tired now.... goodight everyone...

yeah, today was not a very good day.. i got a call in the mornng by someone who i was supposed to hang out wit just as frens.. but i guess they're not ready to hang out whatever.. soo they said that they probably cant go. so i was like yeah give me a call if u can.. well then later i call again just to tell them to let me know by 5 so i can make other plans if she cant make it.. well she never called.. not at 5.. not till now.. soo yeah im pretty dissapointed but.. yeah its funny how a phone call can show how a person really is.. well yeah i hope this person does call sooo i can actually talk to her... but obviously shes avoiding me soo what am i to do?? goodnight.

wow.. today was a day of emotions.. i cant even describe the feeling that i have.. jeannette and i broke up and i guess this time its done.. she just lost interest in me.. but i dont blame her.. towards the end i wasnt playing my part of the relationship.. u know.. i wish i could just get over it and say ok we're totally ok as frens... but its soo hard.. im really gonna try tho.. cause the last thing i wanna do is lose her as a fren.. i'll never stop caring for her.. i cant even write what i feel its just a world of emotions right now.. maybe it is good for the both of us... things happen for a reason right??? thats all i know how to justify it with.. the good part was that it was a mutual thing... and we both seem satisfied with what we expect from one another... but the memories just rush through my mind second after second... i cant help it.. i cant help that im hurt.. just to think that i dont have anyone there who i can care about at the same time they;re thinking about me.. maybe im just afraid of being alone?? i just feel so empty now... whats in store for me... everything is falling apart... yet i feel like im holding the weight of the world on my shoulders... the next couple months is soo crucial in my life.. at this time in my life never have i been soo vulnerable.. i wish things were bright and sunny.. like they used to be..

goodnight.